MIA: It’s been a rough year

Hello, it’s me. Robin. Yes you may remember me. So sorry to neglect you and subject you to video after video, with no writing or photos. See, I’m having a rough year. I think it started in December (usually the hardest month of the year for us – stress anyone?) and kept on going. Ever been unhappy in your job? Or in your marriage? Or at home with the kids? What about all of them…at the same time…for a prolonged period of time….to the point you are begging, yes not just praying, but begging for the return of Christ to happen NOW. Yesterday really. Can I throw in the towel? Give up. There just isn’t enough Calgon to take this little lady away from 2010. I have had some health issues this year…tooth fillings gone wrong and a lot of pain for months, eye exams resulting in glasses and a prescription that I can’t wear (I’m happily wearing 1.25 readers from Target instead!), attack by killer bees during a photo shoot with a trip to the ER, painful nursing issues that resulted in early weaning (11 1/2 months), and I haven’t exercised regularly since I was 7 months pregnant.
So that’s it. That’s where I’m at. Or where I’ve been.
I think the low is over and I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. I have come to a place in life where I can no longer run the rat race and survive. I’m done feeling empty and unfulfilled. Why waste life? Jesus came to give us life and that more abundantly. So why do I feel so…lifeless? I’ve decided to cut back on hours at the dental gig (for numerous reasons, one being that my left shoulder hurts and causes numbness in the hand) and spend those hours pursuing photography and the little business I started this year. But even more exciting than that is my pursuit to become a DONA certified Doula and Bradley birth educator.
I have two amazing women who are helping me reach my goal to a more fulfilled life…the Doula we hired for all 3 of our boys’ births, Rosie, and the Bradley birth educator that taught our class 6 years ago, Liza. We have remained friends over the years and I am so grateful. Rosie is my Doula mentor and possible back-up (in case I can’t make a birth) and Liza is my Bradley mentor and I’m observing her current 12 week class as part of my Doula certification requirements. I will be venturing out of state in October to visit my close friends who are moving to Atlanta…and while I’m there, I’ll be attending the Bradley Birth Educator national teacher training workshop. There is a lot of work and reading that goes into all this training. But those are two things that really fulfill me – hard work and reading. See, I’m kinda a school nerd. I love homework. With all this going on and mothering a family…I won’t be blogging as much. But hey, I was never very good at keeping up with it anyway.
Let the love pour in…. and I’ll keep on truckin’.
P.S. My baby is turning ONE on Monday! Here is a recent pic of my Gavi gavi.